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| March 31th, 2008 [All these colors that shine within my soul, and all I am, you'll never know] -- Innocence&Sincerity -- Is it just me, or has these past few days been terrible? I stare at my first fish, Apollo, wondering what he's flipping out about. Florence left her fish (named Eclipse) with me since it was sick...I was nursing a fish with severe swim bladder disorder. Eclipse is doing great, now Flo just has to pick him up. Maybe Apollo is anxious for my attention. There is a guy who lives in my building...who at this age cannot admit to himself the truth. The truth hurts and when paired with rejection, well that just sucks doesn't it? But seriously, in order to get over it, you're gonna have to face it. It's so ridiculous, this boy. I cannot call him a man, he has yet to become one. I will not call him a "pussy" or a "sissy"...he'll just be a boy. And thanks for lying to my face about your reasons for what you did and how you justified yourself. Oh wait, I forgot, you didn't tell it to my face. You typed it to me online through an IM, so thanks for lying to my screenname. I'm sure you're proud of yourself.
1. Who said I was bummed on Valentines Day?
2. If you really paid attention, you'd know that I detest extravagant gifts.
3. Chocolate and fruits don't really mix unless its fondue. (Chocolate orange sticks?)
4. You cannot lie to me, I see right through it. In conclusion: Epic Fail. -- Figure.v2 -- Thank you Thomas Fan. -- Reviews -- 21 is a so-so movie. I really want to read the book, but unfortunately I don't think I'll have the time to.
The story-plot is based on a real life experience but withered into ficton. Therefore the skeleton of the story is real, but everything else is from Bringing Down The House by Ben Mezrich. In truth, MIT really DID have a Blackjack Team that went to Vegas and made millions. Jim Sturgess portrays Ben Campbell, who is based off the real life Jeff Ma, who started the MIT Blackjack madness. Other than that...everything is a complex work of fiction. I must say, the movie had a somewhat hypnotic effect on me. The constant flipping/turning of cards and the thought process sequences just had my eyes glued to the screen. Aaron Yoo was a nice addition, his character was so amusing. However, there were so many sequences in the film that didn't make a whole lot of sense. I get the overall story, but I think I would've enjoyed it more if it was based more on facts. The characters together were weak to say the least. Yes I enjoy your screentime Jim Sturgess and Aaron Yoo, but half the scenes were useless. Just ...useless. The "drama" was cliche as well. Main character has struggles but is quiet and has good morals. Main character gets a taste of the better life. Main character gets arrogant and cocky. Main character gets involved in big shit. Main character learns his lesson. Main character gets out of big shit and is well off at the end.
Why is the main character white? Last time I remember, Jeff Ma was asian. | | |
| March 24th, 2008 //Asylum from the falling rain, I've had a chance to break.
--And the like -- Where have I been? I'm still not here--really. But there are times when I just want to write, for I haven't written for so long. I guess I'll talk in improper grammar and run-on sentences. I don't regret anything that has happened this year. Everything went some way or another. --These Places and Familiar Faces-- Feeling good doesn't cost a thing, feeling bad does, and stress doesn't make it all any better. The college experience was nowhere near what I expected it to be. I didn't party as much, because I just didn't like the people. I got a good roommate (after I moved) who I'll try to stay in contact with for the rest of my life. My best friends are still there, alive and kicking to boot my sorry ass out of la-la land. Home has never been a comfort really, and still isn't. If anything, things have been more strained than ever. My parents and I never had a loving relationship, so the transition from home to dorm was too easy. I love this freedom, but I hate this feeling of detachment from the world. I've been traveling a lot; visiting friends has become a thrill and a much needed break from my world. Everyone here doesn't understand me like my roommate does, and vice versa. From that night at Dizzies to my ties with an Eric T., this has been a great semester. We're in our own little world, and I'm extremely grateful for everything that has happened so far. --Can't Win-- Specific individuals have been making my life a lot more stressful than it needs to be. All of it comes down to bad timing and misunderstanding. One specific individual is a 14 year old, mentally. Another is just too dumb to comprehend anything I say, and blantly puts me down. The last one, has got to have the worst timing in the world, doing stupid stuff that interferes with my schedule--ruining it, pissing me off, stressing me out. Strut. --The Grim Goodbye-- But nothing comes out of all this. I could pursue, I could go on, I could stay. I choose not. Must I give everything up? I must and I can't do anything about it. This is the world that I must face now, a world where all my dreams and plans don't go as planned and subtly crash and burn. 2008 hovers over thin ice as I await my acceptance/rejection letters from Binghamton and Niagara U. I highly doubt I'll get into either of them from the GPA-plunge that occured during my first semester. Unfortunately that's the one they'll see and not this semester. Not even my high school 3.5 can save me this time around. It took me 4 years to build my hs GPA, and it will take me 4 years in college too. Since I'm cutting it short by 3 years, the current standing of my GPA is pretty pathetic. I really hope I can do what I want. In other news, Boston was a very soothing experience. We spoke about so much, reminisced and recounted all that has happened this past year. What a change--the disappointments, the shame, the disgrace, the solitude, the memory, the people... this life. And darkness is fading in...and the darkness is real. --Reviews-- The Other Boleyn Girl, it's a good movie if you're into drama and costumes. It's a bad movie for someone like me who loves action and humor. Riti, Michele and I walked out of the theatre gawking. Nuff said. | | |
| November 3th, 2007 //It's like my previous life was a just a dream in comatose.
--What I Really Want To Say-- I'm pulling out my hair over the accumulation of stress, guitar withdrawal, pool withdrawal, and photoshop withdrawal. *sigh* I don't even know where to start about how my life has changed. People....oh the beautiful people. At the moment, my heart is stirred and awfully confused. I never wear my heart on my sleeve but it's still so vulnerable. The awful troubles and tensions, the college life that dawns upon me each and every morning. When will everything be robbed of me at last? There are so many people here, and its hard to find someone who will actually sit and talk to you extensively. I'm not going to play as your college whore, I refuse to be misunderstood. I can't even tell some people my honest feelings because I seriously cannot deal with their bullshit. Do NOT tell me what to do because I just won't do it.
Do NOT tell me who I should be with because it's not for you to decide.
Do NOT tell me who I should be looking for because you don't understand me.
Do NOT tell me that you understand me because you don't.
Do NOT tell me what's wrong with me because I already know.
Do NOT tell me how I should live because you need to stfu.
Do NOT tell me that I'm too young or immature to understand for I will treat you the same way.
I'm sick and tired of people constantly looking down on me like "oh you won't understand." If you think I won't understand, then don't bother mentioning it in the first place. If you knew me long enough, you know that I'm awfully pervasive and I get to the bottom of things. Stop belittling me to impower yourself, I see through it. --The Recent Stuff-- My schedule is as hectic as always, it's either constant motion or a complete stand still. Haley (my new suitemate) gave me a tarot card reading, and CHANGE was in every card. A lot of my cards dealt with emotions and thoughts, where civil wars ensue. Ah the negativity you say?! It's the stress, don't call me bitch cause then I'll seriously be one. I miss the good old life, hanging out with Janni and Dana...and Dexter the pug. Oh why didn't you just get a beagle or a labrador >:O. DS is coming in around next week, just in time for my birthday. I ordered Nintendogs Labrador & Friends along with it. If I can't keep a real dog in my dorm, I'll keep an electronic one. --Reviews-- Janni said American Gangster was a REALLY good movie, go watch it ..now. | | |
| May 29th, 2007 MOVIES:: SUMMER 07
movie date
who i saw it with |group 1| group 2| .-----===================================================------. Spiderman 3 5/05/07
|Seijo, Rangel, Aya, Kevin, Naoko, Gabe, Mavis, Naeem, Kana| Janni, Dana| Shrek the Third 5/18/07
|Harvey, Jun| Janni, Dana| Pirates of the Caribbean 3 5/25/07
|Harvey, Ming| Seijo, Rangel, Aya, Kevin, Gabe, Smeeta(sorry i can't spell lol)| Knocked Up 6/04/07
|Harvey| Ocean's Thirteen 6/08/07 Fantastic 4: Silver Surfer 6/15/07 Ratatouille 6/29/07
|Janni, Dana, Jeff C., Yana, Michelle, Alisa| Transformers 7/04/07 Harry Potter 6 7/16/07
|Janni, Dana| The Simpsons Movie 7/27/07 Rush Hour 3 8/10/07 Balls of Fury 8/31/07 | | |
| May 7th, 2007 Gosh...I find my self coming back to xanga over and over. It's something I can't pull myself away from. So Senior year, I've learned a lot this year. Who my friends are, who cares and who doesn't. I've decided to eradicate myself from my sources of error, to correct those mistakes and of course, challenge life. My weekends are ever so packed, my life ever so eventful. New group of friends, new hopes, new dreams, new band (and with that comes practice...), and soon to be new school. It's hard to erase the mind of thoughts that plague you, but I'll keep trying. Eventually my self-conciousness will erase it all and I'll be free. Will I? There so many things happening all at once. I seriously don't know where to begin to comprehend them. I'm letting it all slide by, which may be wise in this case. I hate drama, I hate to see my friends get all depressed over everyone and everything. I'll be there, but please don't drag my name into it. It hasn't happened yet, but there's something there. This black aura floating around that might just implode and become a black hole during June. Who knows, maybe I'm just paranoid. They all tell me that this is part of life, this is high school crap. Sure I believe you, but don't lecture me that this "crap" doesn't matter. This "crap" just so happens to affect every aspect of my life. It's deal or no deal. On a happier note...(sorta) I saw Spiderman 3 with a college group [Seijo, Rangel, Kevin, Girard, Gabe/Santi, Nayim(?), Mavis, Kanna, Aya, and Naoka. I just met Kanna, Naoka, Mavis, Nayim, and Girard that night.] It wasn't as great as I expected. To prevent any spoilers, I'll just join what half the world is saying. Its good, but not great. Nowhere near as good as Spiderman 2. It's funny, and thats about it. The action scenes were just SHORT. TOO FRIGGIN SHORT!. I was totally disappointed. I would see it again, just to laugh. The action was a total disappointment, although I was kinda :O during some the scenes. My favorite part:
"-How's the pie?
-SOO good =D"
Just wtf haha. My brother went to Bamboozle yesterday. He got me a Linkin Park T-shirt, which I wore today. We also have a copy of Minutes to Midnight (HAR HAR HAR =). We have a bunch of sample CD's, too bad the Linkin Park posters didn't survive. He came home last night around 12:35, around the time my Dad came home. Crazyness. And then there was Mr. Milkman[English teacher] who came into class (extremely late), all uh messed up and "un-human" as he put it. He came to school straight from the airport. He arrived in NY from LA around 6 this morning. He came into class with his luggage and stuff. Unshaven, unshowered, tired, and looked like the typical homeless old man you'd see out in Manhattan around 2AM in the morning. I cut first period again today, I stayed up till 2AM just to read for English, I was about 100 pages behind. I was also doing my economics homework. And you know what? Mr. Milkman came in late so no quiz, and Mr. Gretah (Eco teacher) called in sick with the flu. You know, I could've slept at 10. I could've went to Calculus class today at 6:56AM like every other shitty morning. I could've had one less cut. I could've ... been extremely tired right now haha. I had a physics quiz today, I think I did well. Horizontal velocity is constant bitches! YEAH you heard meeee Da Quan and I were right! So thats one wrong for you Mike, one wrong for you girl-who-helps-Mike-in-Latin, one wrong for you Benny, and one wrong for you Fei. I better get a 90+ to raise my awful 75-80 quiz average. On the other hand, my overall average in that class isn't bad thank to the my 90+ lab grades HOO! Oh yeah...to those guys who wanted to skip us in line, DO NOT MOCK GOD. Just because you said all that stuff about Him doesn't mean it was intentional. We let 2 of you get in front of us, but then you bring a whole group over? Don't put on a show about God and blessings for us. We won't believe your bull and don't think I didn't see that smile you had during your "prayer." God has truely blessed us you say, and then you start on Rangel about Karma, and the carribbeans and all that kiss butt stuff. All I have to say is, DON'T MOCK GOD AND USE HIS NAME FOR YOUR BULL. | | |
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